An applause for the cynic...

I have a dear friend (actually, I have a lot of them). He is a lawyer. But he was dissapointed by a girl, which proves he is also human. He was chatting in msn a couple of minutes ago, and he had as a nick something about this evil girl; something really direct... so direct, it even included her name. It wasn't rude or anything, it was just bold...

Gosh!!! It really made me laugh at first, because it is like the third time he does something like that. He claims it doesn't hurt anymore; he does it just because he doesn't care what she thinks (in fact, she has seen his nicknames...) or how she can react. They don't talk to each other anymore. Still, it makes me wonder: why can't we all be that bold, that crystal clear?

Then I'd know what people in my life really think of me. Why they do (and did) the things they've done; the things they've said. And we would all be living with the comfort of knowing the real deal of things. We'd all be happier, and we'd all get along better.

Still, I know my wishes are soooooo utopic. I have claimed all of my life that I am pretty honest, pretty real, pretty crystalline... but I can't stand up in front of people and tell them what I think about them. I guess I'm not that transparent after all.

I can't even write bold nicknames. I just panick with the thought of it.

But I'd like to know the truth, at some point. Maybe the time will come when I am ready to speak it up first.